I've been MIA!

I struggled for a few weeks to get my act together with eating. I ate whatever and it showed on the scale. I promised myself on Tuesday that if I stuck to my plan all week, I'd get donuts on Sunday. Well I did and it also showed on the scale! Plus yesterday was my monthly weight and pics.

I'll start with my weight today since it's the lowest I have been since I was pregnant with my 7.5 year old!!

128.6!! Woot. I really stuck to my points this week. I walked 7.8 on Wednesday and made sure to get extra moving around in also. Last week I walked 8.5 miles on day!

On to my monthly measurements:

Weight: 129.4
Waist (stomach): 34.5
Natural Waist: 31
Hips: 37
Bust: 38 (I was full when I measured)
Left Arm/Leg: 10 in/20.25 in
Right Arm/Leg: 10 in/20 in

4/17/13     05/17/14

04/17/14       05/17/14 

Visually there isn't much of a difference. But the numbers are down so I am happy.

Here is me from last night in normal clothes.

If I stick with my points until Tuesday I should make my goal weight at WW. So then I'll be in my 6 weeks make my goal weight. Yay!

The last 2 weigh in's and monthly measurements!

Weigh in from 4/8:

I had not done the best at eating the week prior and I'd missed my normal weigh in so I knew I needed to weigh in even though I was afraid of gaining that week. I had to go in on Wednesday which was nice because they open early that day.

WW: 132.8
-1.0 officially (that was a loss from 2 weeks)

Weigh in from Tuesday 4/15:

At home: 131.3 (OMG YAY!)
WW: 132.2
-.6
TOTAL: -29lbs!

My WW year anniversary is next Wednesday. I am thinking about going in on Wednesday just so I can do it on my year. I'd love to lose 1lb this week so I can have an even 30lbs for the year.

Today is my year from starting measuring and pictures!

Weight: 131.3
Waist (stomach) -5.5 inches
Hips: -3.5 inches
Bust: -4 inches

Left Arm/Leg: 10.5in/20.25in
Right Arm/Leg: 10in/20.75in

03/17/14     04/17/14

04/17/13            04/17/14

Monthly Measurements and Pictures!

I was nervous about how my weight would be today. I ate good all day yesterday but I didn't have my kids back by the end of the day and I didn't know when I'd get them back. So I emotional ate. My hubby said "Just eat if it will make you feel better." He could see I was upset about the kids not being back so he "gave me permission" to eat. Haha. So I ate.

I woke up went on the scale and it said:

WHAT?!?!? I couldn't even believe it. This was the third time I got on the scale because I honestly didn't believe it. God did for me what I couldn't do for myself. Ha. Well, I did my part, God did the rest. 

On to the measurements! Next month it will be my one year mark of taking measurements and weight loss! I can't believe it's been a year. It seemed so daunting and overwhelming thinking about all the weight I had to lose. 

Weight: 133.4 lbs
Waist: 35.5 in
Hips: 37.75 in
Bust: 37.5 in
Right Arm: 10.25 in
Left Arm: 10.5 in
Right thigh: 21 in
Left thigh: 20.5 in

This is the one month difference. Not a whole lot of difference visually, as usual. 

11 month difference

04/17/2013    03/17/2014

04/17/2013   03/17/2014

I love data. I love seeing the numbers drop. I made a spreadsheet about it too. haha I do a yearly loss next month! My goal is to be at my goal weight by next measurement on April 17th. 

Here are my normal pants. The lovely Target Yoga pants. Size Small!

Hoping for a good weigh in tomorrow at Weight Watchers. 

Pictures and Measurements

I really didn't want to do this. I hate seeing number go up and I do not like recording them. But I still did it. It's been an emotional week that made me eat more than I wanted on a few days. I wanted to be down more today but we went out to eat at my favorite restaurant so it's hard not to eat less. We haven't been eating out as much so I kinda splurged.

I want to add something. Hubby and I went for a physical for work health insurance. If we passed certain tests we get X amount off our premium each year. We both passed all 5...yay! But when they measured my waist it was higher up than I measure. I measure at the thickest part of my midsection. So my 'waist' measurement is a bit more than my natural waist.

Weight: 137.9 lbs
Waist: 35.75 in
Hips: 37.75 in
Bust: 39 in
Right Arm: 10.25 in
Left Arm: 10.5 in
Right thigh: 21 in
Left thigh: 21 in

L: 4/17/13    R: 2/17/13

L: 11/17/13   R: 02/17/13 

L: 11/17/13   R: 02/17/13

  

L: 04/17/13   R: 02/17/13

And this was me 1 year ago today! hehe I was still 6 days from having E! 

Plateau

I have hit a plateau. No doubt about it. But I think part of it is that I haven't followed the points very well the last month. My emotions have been all over the place and I am an admitted emotional eater. Between soccer and all kinds of life stuff I have not been great about sticking to the points.

I did lose this week though:
Weight Watchers Weight: 135.0
Weekly Loss: -.6
Total Loss: -26.2

I am 5lbs away from my goal. I want to hit that by February. At this point I don't know if that will happen. I know that is 3 months, but I need to buckle down and follow the plan. I will say it's been hard to know if the points are right for me. Since E is still nursing 95% of the time but some days she eats more solids I don't know if the 40 is too much. I have been playing around with the points so right now I am trying 36 per day. I am hoping this helps.

I changed my weigh in day to Wednesday. I don't really like the ladies that work Wednesday mornings at the meeting I go to but I don't have a choice right now since they don't open until 11 on Tuesday. One lady chastised me for not having my monthly pass card (which I've never used ever) because I need it for when the computers are down. Okay, yes, one more thing I need to carry that I never use. Plus it's all old ladies and they are either nice or mean.

Today is my monthly picture and measuring. I did not take a picture because there was no point. I haven't lost any significant weight or inches.

11/17/2013
Weight: 136.0 (-.2)
Waist: 36 (same)
Hips: 37 (-.5)
Bust: 39 (same)
Arms: 10.25 (.-25)

What annoys me is my scale at home. I know that the weight watchers weight is most accurate because it has the same variables each week but still. According to Weight Watchers weight I was 137.6 on 10/15 and this week I was 135. So that is -2.6. Obviously that is different than my home weight loss of .2!

I did cut down on Diet Coke again. I only drink Diet Coke, Water, and the occasional Dr. Pepper or Unsweet tea. I wish there was more I could drink that had no calories.

Pictures

04/17/13                       08/18/13

Picture Progress

My scale yesterday said 143.6! I haven't been 143 since 2010!! I wore some shorts today that were too big. I didn't realize it until they were falling off.

April, May, June, & July.

 April & July

One Month Pictures

I lost 1.5 inches in my waist. 

I lost 1 inch in my hips.

On my scale I have lost 6.6lbs (as opposed to my 8.2 at Weight Watchers)

You can't see a whole lot of difference from the front.

The difference is from the side. :) 

In the beginning

There are a million blogs out there where people are documenting their weight loss. I am just one in a sea of blogs but that is okay because this my journey. This is my record. I haven't had a blog, and open blog, in a couple of years. Even if no one ever reads this it will still be my words and my experience.

A little about me. I am 31 year old  from Oklahoma but have resided in Texas for 10 years. I am a wife to a crazy/super cool husband & mother to 3 beautiful children. I am a stay at home mom, recovering alcoholic (sober 3 years), and creator of crafts. My kiddos: G is 6 and in the 1st grade, C is 4 and in preschool, and E is 7 weeks old. E is part of the reason I am loosing weight. After G, I lost all by 10lbs of my baby weight. After C, I lost all of the baby weight but still had the 10lbs from G. Currently I am 159 lbs. I gained 34lbs with E. I was up to 179. My goal weight is 130. It is where I am comfortable. I haven't been 130 since about 2007.

What am I doing to loose weight? I am a runner but it's not possible for me to run right now. So I walk. I bought a fitbit and it's a great motivator. I am starting Weight Watchers on Tuesday. I would rather change my food ways than working out a lot. I have always done well on Weight Watchers so I am excited to start. Plus I like the meetings even though I don't say anything. It reminds me a lot of AA meetings. The reason I chose this name for my blog is because right now I don't have much love for my body. I feel gross. My clothes don't fit very well and I refuse to buy new clothes. The AA meeting on Tuesday was about Love and Tolerance of myself. I want to love my body even if I am not at my goal weight yet. I really do not like this picture of myself and I have never put a picture like this of myself on the internet. But here goes. Here is the before picture: