Weigh in #16

Weight at home: 141.5
Weight Watchers: 142.2!
-1.0! Total Weight Loss: 19lbs!
Awesome. I didn't even track that much this week. Crazy. My body needed that break.

This journey for me is more than losing weight to be healthy. It's about learning to love my body during the process and right now. I am never good enough. I keep thinking I'll be happy when I make it to X weight. I am never really happy right in the moment. There are times when I am kind of happy but I am using other things to try and fill that void. I have been shopping a lot. Hubby gives me spending money on clothes, but I have been doing it more and more. I actually felt guilty today. And I only bought a jacket. I did buy E some fall/clothes. I bought G & C each a toy today.

I really need to figure out what is going on emotionally. My sponsor just moved to Colorado and I miss her. I still call her 1 or 2 times a week. I just don't feel spiritually fit right now. I am not getting to many meetings because of E. The kids start school next week so I will be able to get to WW meetings and maybe try some noon AA meetings.

On a funny note. G told me today he knows why I am going to Weight Watchers. He said it's because I just had a baby and I want to lose the weight I gained. I asked him what made him know that is why, if he'd been talking to someone about it. He said no one, that he had thought of that on his own. Haha. Funny kid. Then C asked me how I got so sexy. :)

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04/17/13                       08/18/13

Weigh In #15 - late

It's been a crazy week. I'll start with my weigh in from Tuesday.

143.2 -.2. Bleh. I am happy I didn't gain, but I am annoyed that my weight is coming off really slowly. I am still on track to get to my goal weight by the time E is 1, but still.

This week I have only tracked one day. I have not gone too crazy but I just needed to give myself a break from tracking. Even if I gain weight, I needed a mental break from it. I've worked really hard the last 15 weeks. I had a personal thing happen on Wednesday that got my adrenaline going and I had a skin cancer removed on Thursday. I didn't eat from 8pm - 4pm the next day.

Hubby and I walked this morning (1.77m) so I am glad we did something active. So even if I gain this week I will be okay because mentally I am better. Though my scale doesn't have me gaining weight. I am around 141.2-142.2. I was 142.2 this morning. :)