Weigh in #16

Weight at home: 141.5
Weight Watchers: 142.2!
-1.0! Total Weight Loss: 19lbs!
Awesome. I didn't even track that much this week. Crazy. My body needed that break.

This journey for me is more than losing weight to be healthy. It's about learning to love my body during the process and right now. I am never good enough. I keep thinking I'll be happy when I make it to X weight. I am never really happy right in the moment. There are times when I am kind of happy but I am using other things to try and fill that void. I have been shopping a lot. Hubby gives me spending money on clothes, but I have been doing it more and more. I actually felt guilty today. And I only bought a jacket. I did buy E some fall/clothes. I bought G & C each a toy today.

I really need to figure out what is going on emotionally. My sponsor just moved to Colorado and I miss her. I still call her 1 or 2 times a week. I just don't feel spiritually fit right now. I am not getting to many meetings because of E. The kids start school next week so I will be able to get to WW meetings and maybe try some noon AA meetings.

On a funny note. G told me today he knows why I am going to Weight Watchers. He said it's because I just had a baby and I want to lose the weight I gained. I asked him what made him know that is why, if he'd been talking to someone about it. He said no one, that he had thought of that on his own. Haha. Funny kid. Then C asked me how I got so sexy. :)

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Weigh In #15 - late

It's been a crazy week. I'll start with my weigh in from Tuesday.

143.2 -.2. Bleh. I am happy I didn't gain, but I am annoyed that my weight is coming off really slowly. I am still on track to get to my goal weight by the time E is 1, but still.

This week I have only tracked one day. I have not gone too crazy but I just needed to give myself a break from tracking. Even if I gain weight, I needed a mental break from it. I've worked really hard the last 15 weeks. I had a personal thing happen on Wednesday that got my adrenaline going and I had a skin cancer removed on Thursday. I didn't eat from 8pm - 4pm the next day.

Hubby and I walked this morning (1.77m) so I am glad we did something active. So even if I gain this week I will be okay because mentally I am better. Though my scale doesn't have me gaining weight. I am around 141.2-142.2. I was 142.2 this morning. :)

I have no title today

I am starting this post with out a title. I feel like writing but I don't really know what this is about yet. I do know that I am finally staying in the 142's. I feeeeel lighter. I feel better. I was thinking the other day I do not feel tired at 2-3 in the afternoon like I used to. I don't really know why that is different. I used to work 8-5 and be at a desk most of the day. Now I stay at home so I am more active during the day. The kids start school in 2 weeks, which I am definitely ready for, and I can get into a walking routine again. I have walked 3 times this week. I was going to walk this morning but I was lazy.

We went over to my sister's house last night for my mom's birthday. I ate over my points on Wednesday so I was doing my best to stay in my points yesterday. Hubby and I met with some people for his work and we went to Whiskey Cake. They do not have healthy options. I just ended up getting a burger. I ate the twisty fries too. I knew I shouldn't have but I did. I also could not find the nutrition fact anywhere. I had to guess. Annoying. Whatever.

My hubby tells me all the time I am getting skinnier. He is seeing it more and more. I am glad he says it unprompted. My sister and her husband also told me they haven't seen me this skinny in a long time. It honestly made me feel so good. I have worked hard on losing this weight and people are noticing. Hell, I've lost almost 20lbs since April.

It's weird to think I might actually get to my goal weight. I have been wanting to get to this weight since I had my almost 5 year old. :)

Weigh In #14

When I have been with Weight Watchers for 16 weeks I will get a little charm. I guess they say that once you've made it to 16 weeks you have a new habit. :)

My scale said 142.9. Finally!! Even if it's just barely in the 142's.

Weight Watchers: 143.4. Weight loss of .4. Not bad. I talked to the lady for a little bit about feeling stuck. She gave me a few suggestions. Add some dairy. So I am eating one yogurt per day. I am not a yogurt eater but I need to do try something different since my body is stuck. I told her I eat eggs for breakfast every morning. She said add 2 egg whites to your one egg. I also have a goal to eat no fast food. I will eat Sonic Tater Tots because they are only 3 points and it's quick when I am out.

I did not count my points yesterday because I was frustrated. Guess what the scale said this morning? 142.6! I lost! Haha. So we will see if this works.

Feeling good

I am feeling good right now. Mostly. I am still in the 143's, which is driving me nuts! But I knew I needed to change something. I walked the last 2 days. Both days I walked 1.65 miles. I was SORE last night. I had to take some ibuprofen. I went to the splash pad with the kids today. I cleaned the house up. Did laundry. And I stayed in my points...mostly. ;)

I haven't been this dedicated to my weight loss in a while. Probably since the last time I was stuck. So we shall see how my weigh in goes tomorrow. :)

Feeling discouraged

I am feeling discouraged today. Mostly because I am not at my goal weight yet. I am not even close. Closer than I was, but I am kinda in the middle of a pity party today. Plus all I have wanted to do today is eat. Eat. Eat. Eat. I am still in my points today but I just want to eat. I really need to go to a WW meeting. I will make it a point of doing that next week. Also, I need to find a time to work out.

I threw away my scale that is being dumb. It hasn't moved under 144.2 in a few days. The other one has me a pound lower than that. So I decided to just toss it. Plus it was a cheap scale anyways.