I am feeling good right now. Mostly. I am still in the 143's, which is driving me nuts! But I knew I needed to change something. I walked the last 2 days. Both days I walked 1.65 miles. I was SORE last night. I had to take some ibuprofen. I went to the splash pad with the kids today. I cleaned the house up. Did laundry. And I stayed in my points...mostly. ;)
I haven't been this dedicated to my weight loss in a while. Probably since the last time I was stuck. So we shall see how my weigh in goes tomorrow. :)
Monday, August 5, 2013
Friday, August 2, 2013
Feeling discouraged
I am feeling discouraged today. Mostly because I am not at my goal weight yet. I am not even close. Closer than I was, but I am kinda in the middle of a pity party today. Plus all I have wanted to do today is eat. Eat. Eat. Eat. I am still in my points today but I just want to eat. I really need to go to a WW meeting. I will make it a point of doing that next week. Also, I need to find a time to work out.
I threw away my scale that is being dumb. It hasn't moved under 144.2 in a few days. The other one has me a pound lower than that. So I decided to just toss it. Plus it was a cheap scale anyways.
I threw away my scale that is being dumb. It hasn't moved under 144.2 in a few days. The other one has me a pound lower than that. So I decided to just toss it. Plus it was a cheap scale anyways.
Thursday, August 1, 2013
Weigh in #13
I can't believe I forgot to post my weigh in from Tuesday!
Home weight: 143.8
Weight Watchers: 143.8
Total weight loss: -17.4
I get scared every week that I am going to gain. My scale at home is stupid. I should just put it away and use the one that seems to be more accurate. I have been stuck in the 143/144 for the past 2 weeks so I guess that is one reason why I am scared I am going to have gained. I am itching to work out, but have not been motivated enough to do it. I still walk between 4000-5000 steps per day. I clean up the house and do laundry. Sometimes with E in my arms. I know that helps.
What do I do to sabotage myself? BAKING I love to bake. Cookies, banana bread, all the yummy stuff. But it's so easy. And it's so easy to eat.
I will keep plugging along.
Home weight: 143.8
Weight Watchers: 143.8
Total weight loss: -17.4
I get scared every week that I am going to gain. My scale at home is stupid. I should just put it away and use the one that seems to be more accurate. I have been stuck in the 143/144 for the past 2 weeks so I guess that is one reason why I am scared I am going to have gained. I am itching to work out, but have not been motivated enough to do it. I still walk between 4000-5000 steps per day. I clean up the house and do laundry. Sometimes with E in my arms. I know that helps.
What do I do to sabotage myself? BAKING I love to bake. Cookies, banana bread, all the yummy stuff. But it's so easy. And it's so easy to eat.
I will keep plugging along.
Thursday, July 25, 2013
I 'stress-ate' tonight
I am a stress eater. I eat when I am bored. I eat when I want to buy something but it doesn't cost a lot. I like to buy clothes but I don't like paying very much for them. I will leave the store without buying anything and the first thing I think is..."I'll go to Sonic." I have been better about not doing that. I actually resisted doing that today. I actually ate pretty well today. Then I went to a meeting. E babbles and talks now so going to meetings is increasingly difficult. We took her into the sitter but then she screamed. Last week hubby's sister watched her for 45 minutes without us there and she did fine! At a meeting last Friday she let someone hold her for 15.
So, we left. I haven't left a meeting early since I was drunk during the meeting and felt guilty. Then hubby and I were discussing something else and all I wanted to do was eat something. I did have a little part of my brain think, don't completely blow it, but I still wanted something. I haven't had a Dr. Pepper in I don't know how long. This is new because I L.O.V.E. Dr. Pepper. Mmmmmm. We stopped at QT. I got a 12oz Dr. Pepper and a SKOR bar. The pop was good, but the candy bar didn't quite live up to its comforting fantasy. I don't feel guilty over the candy or pop, but I just feel meh.
I was watching Extreme Weight Loss (which I love) and the lady started out at 290 at 5"4'. She got down to 145. I thought, she is smaller than me. OH WAIT! No, I am 143.4. I honestly still picture myself at 150. I have been thinking about why I don't feel motivated. I am the type to figure out WHY a behavior is happening and treat the problem. My guess right now is my clothes don't feel any loser. I see a small change in my appearance, but it's so minimal right now that I feel like I have no rewards. Plus, time is creeping right now.
The kids go back to school in a month. They have been good overall this summer. It's the first time I have had them home full time since they were babies. I just want some routine back I guess. Hopefully I can get out of this unmotivated rut and get my butt in gear. I think I need to make a happy list! Things I should pat myself on the back for doing.
I have lost almost 17lbs in 3 months.
I feel better overall.
I am not as tired as I used to be.
I went outside and played soccer with G on Tuesday.
I have STUCK with this, even when I have not felt motivated.
I am still losing. I haven't actually gained.
There it is. I feel a tiny bit better. One day at a time my friends.
So, we left. I haven't left a meeting early since I was drunk during the meeting and felt guilty. Then hubby and I were discussing something else and all I wanted to do was eat something. I did have a little part of my brain think, don't completely blow it, but I still wanted something. I haven't had a Dr. Pepper in I don't know how long. This is new because I L.O.V.E. Dr. Pepper. Mmmmmm. We stopped at QT. I got a 12oz Dr. Pepper and a SKOR bar. The pop was good, but the candy bar didn't quite live up to its comforting fantasy. I don't feel guilty over the candy or pop, but I just feel meh.
I was watching Extreme Weight Loss (which I love) and the lady started out at 290 at 5"4'. She got down to 145. I thought, she is smaller than me. OH WAIT! No, I am 143.4. I honestly still picture myself at 150. I have been thinking about why I don't feel motivated. I am the type to figure out WHY a behavior is happening and treat the problem. My guess right now is my clothes don't feel any loser. I see a small change in my appearance, but it's so minimal right now that I feel like I have no rewards. Plus, time is creeping right now.
The kids go back to school in a month. They have been good overall this summer. It's the first time I have had them home full time since they were babies. I just want some routine back I guess. Hopefully I can get out of this unmotivated rut and get my butt in gear. I think I need to make a happy list! Things I should pat myself on the back for doing.
I have lost almost 17lbs in 3 months.
I feel better overall.
I am not as tired as I used to be.
I went outside and played soccer with G on Tuesday.
I have STUCK with this, even when I have not felt motivated.
I am still losing. I haven't actually gained.
There it is. I feel a tiny bit better. One day at a time my friends.
Tuesday, July 23, 2013
Weigh In #12
I have felt stuck and unmotivated. I am not sure what to do to get myself motivated. I would like to work out. When I am bored I want to eat or bake. OH how I love to bake. I love making treats for my kids and my lovelyhubby. That is just a recipe for disaster.
So my scale this morning said 144.2. Not thrilled because I was at 143.6 earlier this week. Whatever, it's still less than what I was last week.
I get to WW to weigh in. I was nervous. I am nervous every week.
144.6. Thank goodness a loss of .6! So as of today, -16.6.
I need to figure out a motivation. I am not sure my next WW goal. I'd like a small one. I think I'll make it for myself. So my next goal is a loss of 20lbs. That is 3.4lbs. I am still on track to get to my goal weight by E's first birthday. That makes me happy.
So my scale this morning said 144.2. Not thrilled because I was at 143.6 earlier this week. Whatever, it's still less than what I was last week.
I get to WW to weigh in. I was nervous. I am nervous every week.
144.6. Thank goodness a loss of .6! So as of today, -16.6.
I need to figure out a motivation. I am not sure my next WW goal. I'd like a small one. I think I'll make it for myself. So my next goal is a loss of 20lbs. That is 3.4lbs. I am still on track to get to my goal weight by E's first birthday. That makes me happy.
Sunday, July 21, 2013
Picture Progress
My scale yesterday said 143.6! I haven't been 143 since 2010!! I wore some shorts today that were too big. I didn't realize it until they were falling off.
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Wednesday, July 17, 2013
Weigh in #11
Weight at home: 144.6
Weight Watchers Weight: 145.2
That means I made my 10% goal. I have lost 10% of my body weight! That is 16lbs!
I only lost .2 this week. I did not eat that great, I rarely tracked and I didn't work out. I only needed to lose .2 to make my 10% goal though. It's hard to believe I have lost that much weight. 16lbs!
I want to list the things I am not happy about my body. I don't think right now it is productive, but I want to look back and see if it's changed.
My stomach is still were most of my weight is. I assumed it would shrink more since I am below what I was even at my 150 before E.
My arms.
My love handles.
I know I could work on all of this by doing exercises that would target those areas. But I don't have that much time or motivation to do it. I did play soccer with G last night. My legs are sore. Maybe I should do that more often. Change stuff up. Also, a tragedy of epic proportions happened. I lost my fitbit for 2 days! lol It's okay now, because I found it.
Weight Watchers Weight: 145.2
That means I made my 10% goal. I have lost 10% of my body weight! That is 16lbs!
I only lost .2 this week. I did not eat that great, I rarely tracked and I didn't work out. I only needed to lose .2 to make my 10% goal though. It's hard to believe I have lost that much weight. 16lbs!
I want to list the things I am not happy about my body. I don't think right now it is productive, but I want to look back and see if it's changed.
My stomach is still were most of my weight is. I assumed it would shrink more since I am below what I was even at my 150 before E.
My arms.
My love handles.
I know I could work on all of this by doing exercises that would target those areas. But I don't have that much time or motivation to do it. I did play soccer with G last night. My legs are sore. Maybe I should do that more often. Change stuff up. Also, a tragedy of epic proportions happened. I lost my fitbit for 2 days! lol It's okay now, because I found it.
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