Weigh In #21 & #22

I started this post yesterday, but got distracted by my motherly duties.

I forgot to post last weeks weigh in. It has been a busy few weeks. We have had soccer practice, ballet, and 1/2 of the family was sick! E is finally better, G still has the hacky cough, but I am now sick. Bleh. I have felt icky since last night.

On to the weigh in from last week.

At home: 138.3
Weight Watchers: 139.2
Weekly Loss: -.4
Total Weight Loss: -22

My normal routine for Tuesday morning are drop G off, drop C off, then drive and wait until 9 am so I can weigh in. Well they changed their hours starting this week. UGH! They won't open until 10:45am. I used to be able to not eat or drink until 9am. I now I have to rework my schedule. Bleh. I decided to eat some eggs and drink some water this morning. Also, C is changing pre-schools to one that is in town so it will be a bit easier on my pocket book, gas and sanity so I don't have to deal with a screaming E for 20 minutes.

I ate okay last week. I was worried about the different time of weighing in and the not eating well would make me not lose much. I walked Friday and Monday so I know that helped. We walked on Friday and 5.44 yesterday. I was happy with that.

Here is this weeks weigh in:

At home: 137.3
Weight Watchers: 138.2
Weekly Loss: -1
Total Weight Loss: -23

YAY! So happy that even though I ate not so awesome, I still did well this week. I also decided to reduce my points on Monday because E is eating solids more regularly. Hubby is the feeder and pretty regular with it. I think it's what made me lose so much from Sunday to today.

Weigh In #20

139.7 - Weight at home

139.6 - weight watchers weight
Total weight loss: 21.6!

That is -1.6!!

Finally! I haven't had this much weight loss since the summer! I ate really good this week. I walked several times. My friend and I walked 4.6 miles yesterday! I am 9.6lbs away from my goal weight. I am a few pounds away from not being considered 'overweight'. I bought a pair of size 4 shorts from Target today! I am very excited. I rewarded myself with a Dr. Pepper today. Also, the other thing I did this week was only drink 1 diet coke per day. I did that, mostly. hehe. I also didn't eat after 6/7pm. 

The number one thing I do worry about is my milk. Which, as of right now, has not suffered at all. So that is a plus. Yay. Until next week.

Scale is moving

I have been really really discouraged the last few weeks. I can't seem to get my head straight and it's showing in my weight loss. As you know I gained .2, which isn't a lot, but in my head it is. I am sure that is a skewed view but whatever.

I walked 4 miles on Wednesday and I am trying to decide if I want to walk this morning once E is up from her nap.

I have had several people tell me that I look good. One told me I was her inspiration! ha. It is very sweet for people to say that. My hubby just likes my big boobs, haha.

I do admit I am feeling skinny at times. I over ate on Wednesday night and I felt so gross. I haven't over eaten in a long time. I forgot it feels gross. It lasted several hours. Today I am hungry. Mostly it's just boredom. That is one thing I struggle with is boredom eating. Maybe I'll look up some ways to battle that.

For now, I'll go pick up the house. :)

Weigh In #19

I don't even want to post. I gained. But I only gained .2. It is my own fault though. I made cinnamon rolls and I ate a lot of carbs yesterday. I want to lower my points but my lovely husband said I shouldn't because I am becoming obsessed with losing weight. He says I look good and give yourself credit, that I have lost 20lbs. He is right though, hate admitting that, but he is right. Another reason I am upset is because my jeans do not fit around my waste still. It's still from my pregnancy. I know it is. I gain weight in my stomach so it's all still sitting there.

I can give this reason or that but really it's my own fault. I ate like crap. I am feeling itchy to do something though, like craft or paint a wall. I just don't have time.

I need to think of something to change this week instead of have a pity party. I think I will drink as much water as I can. Always have water around. And only one Diet Coke. It's my guilty habit.

Weigh In #18

140.9 Weight at home

141.0 WW weight

-.4 from last week

-20.2 total weight loss

I happy with that. Still really slow but I am okay with it. The only thing I am still annoyed with is my postpartum belly. It's still ugh. Pants still don't fit much. Muffin top still. Yuck. I am thinking my abdominal muscles are separated. I still sometimes look 4 months pregnant. 

I started walking again this morning. C started dance and I met a lady that lives in my city. We are meeting up Monday, Wednesday, and Friday to walk. We walked 2.5 miles this morning.

My scale this morning said 140.0! I am THISCLOSE to the 130's! Woot!

Weigh In #17

Weight at Home: 140.1

Weight Watchers Weight: 141.4

Loss this week: -.8

Total weight loss: 19.8

I am happy with that weight loss this week. I worked hard the last 3 days. My hubby is trying to lose about 10lbs so he makes us lunch and dinner. I eat a better balance of food when he cooks. He is a good cook so I know it will be healthy and yummy.

The one thing I am struggling with is actually SEEING the difference. I can not see the difference in my body. I see the scale going down, but it doesn't register. I am sure there is something wrong in my wiring somewhere, but I can't figure it out.

I am feeling better spiritually. Not 100% but better. 

I don't think my postpartum belly will be normal until about 9-12 months after E was born. I am almost 6 lbs less than but my clothes fit everywhere but my stomach. So weird. I don't remember it being like this before, but before I was drunk. Ha. 

So hopefully next week I will have lost 20lbs!

Weigh in #16

Weight at home: 141.5
Weight Watchers: 142.2!
-1.0! Total Weight Loss: 19lbs!
Awesome. I didn't even track that much this week. Crazy. My body needed that break.

This journey for me is more than losing weight to be healthy. It's about learning to love my body during the process and right now. I am never good enough. I keep thinking I'll be happy when I make it to X weight. I am never really happy right in the moment. There are times when I am kind of happy but I am using other things to try and fill that void. I have been shopping a lot. Hubby gives me spending money on clothes, but I have been doing it more and more. I actually felt guilty today. And I only bought a jacket. I did buy E some fall/clothes. I bought G & C each a toy today.

I really need to figure out what is going on emotionally. My sponsor just moved to Colorado and I miss her. I still call her 1 or 2 times a week. I just don't feel spiritually fit right now. I am not getting to many meetings because of E. The kids start school next week so I will be able to get to WW meetings and maybe try some noon AA meetings.

On a funny note. G told me today he knows why I am going to Weight Watchers. He said it's because I just had a baby and I want to lose the weight I gained. I asked him what made him know that is why, if he'd been talking to someone about it. He said no one, that he had thought of that on his own. Haha. Funny kid. Then C asked me how I got so sexy. :)